Monday, June 05, 2006; 7:00 AM;
IM SO UNWORTHY OF YOU. I FEEL LIKE SHIT. WHY ARE YOU SO NICE TO ME. IM SUCH A BITCH. IM SO STUPID I'VE GOT NO BRAINS. WTF I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW I FEEL. THIS SUCKS ALOT. IM SO SORRY. IM TOO FREAKING STUPID TO REALISE THAT ALL I THOUGHT I DID, I DIDNT. I THOUGHT I WANTED TO BE YOUR GIRLFRIEND. I THOUGHT IT'LL TURN OUT GOOD SINCE WE LIKED EACH OTHER. BUT I DIDNT REALISE WHAT WAS GOING ON IN ME. I DIDNT STOP MYSELF FROM CHANGING MY MIND AGAIN &AGAIN. I FEEL LIKE A BITCH IM SO MEAN TO YOU. SORRY SORRY SORRY. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO TELL YOU. WE WERE STUCK IN E MIDDLE OF NOWHERE &I DIDNT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. I THOUGHT IT WAS TEMPORARY BUT IT SHOOK ME MORE &MORE DEEP INSIDE. I WAS AFRAID. &NOW I KNOW ITS POINTLESS TO BE CRYING LIKE SOME LUNATIC IN FRONT OF E BLOODY COM. I KNOW NO AMOUNT OF TEARS CAN ERASE THIS HORRIBLE DEED I'VE DONE TO YOU. I DONT WANT YOU TO ENDURE E PAIN I DID E OTHER TIME. ITS ALL MY FAULT. WHY DIDNT I MAKE SURE. IM SO SORRY. YOU'RE STILL SO NICE TO ME. YOU DESERVE BETTER, SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME, A FICKLE-MINDED PIECE OF CRAP. SORRY MY DEAR.
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